What I would tell Cancer

I know you thought today would be Cayman pictures, but I needed a break from the happy cruise life. I love to read THIS blog. This guy's wife is dying of cancer, and he is a cyclist. Funny combination I know, but still. If you read yesterday's post and watched the video, you are thinking right now aren't you. What you would say to cancer. I thought about it all day yesterday. It came at a time when I was ready for fighting words. Not a good couple of days. Wish I knew why.

So, what would I say to cancer?

You changed me. You changed everything about me. Every relationship I have. I don't know who I am because the person I was before you is gone. You made me sad and selfish. Caught up in my own hurt, so much that I have lost touch with the needs of my family and husband. Some how you don't just kill the ones I love, you seep into everything. You affect all the things that were normal. They are all in disarray. No one will ever be the same. But, don't think all of this is bad. I have changed for the good too. I find blessings in the things you think will hurt me. You have strengthened my testimony, and gave me increased faith. HA! HA HA!! You thought you beat us. You may have taken my Mom, but HA again. She is better off. As for the hurt you caused, It will never go away. But I will use it for good. And you might as well just go away, because I will do everything I can to prevent you from coming around again. My normal might be a different normal than before you, but it's the new me. The after cancer me. I have a lot to fix because of the sadness, but I can do it. To be honest, I am scared to death of you. I don't want a fight, I just want you to take responsibility and go away. Don't move on to someone else, just go away.